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Name: Brian
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Waco
Birthday: 6/3/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: I love people. I enjoy spending time with others just hanging out or doing whatever. I love Jesus and everything that entails, such as reading the bible, studying what He has taught and then figuring out how exactly I can apply it to my life.
Expertise: I'm not an expert at anything. I know how to run sound equipment and I enjoy using it when people need someone to do that, but other than that, I know a little about a lot of things.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  bayloreligion07
Member Since:
2/25/2005
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| "What is objectionable, what is dangerous, about extremists is not that they are extreme, but that they are intolerant. The evil is not what they say about their cause, but what they say about their opponents."-RFK I'm tired of the bitching, the complaining, the arguing, the feeling of helplessness, the way the world doesn't work together and the ignorance of man to the point that he will allow the whole of the world to suffer but for to accomplish a whole-lot of nothing. People who can't get along with others aren't stubborn or difficult, they're selfish. They, like MOST OF US, have been taught, both by our parents directly, and through the running of our society, political system, military, culture, language, economy, etc., that we come first and what we think matters to others. Well, it doesn't work that way...except in America. Even those who are not born into the middle/upper classes, of non-caucasian ancestry, have it better here than in the rest of the world, save a few, and I mean F-E-W Euro countries, Japan, Australia, Canada and the like. We, and I mean we as in humans, could solve the problem of hunger, poverty, energy consumption, war, disease, and other global issues, by working together. By sitting here and doing nothing, or endorsing the American philosophy of consumerism and compliance through military force and economic deprivation, I feel part of me die everday. This is the 60's all over again, except the children of this era have no inspiration, save music and movies, to act. The lathargic reaction to what happens everyday can be seen upon simply entering a high school/ public education facility. The system perpetuates itself and unless we react against the usage of mankind to fulfill the purposes of the wealthy, then the suffering will never end; the molestations, hatred, misunderstandings, warring, evil purportions of men and women alike, will continue forever and ever-amen. I'm not selling an ideology, religion, political viewpoint, economic solution or anything like it. I'm suggesting a more satisfying, meaningful, important life than the velvet prison we've been brought up to accept. Knowledge is the true wealth of men, for all else is given value through only the eyes of some. Maybe should've been born in the 60's, or during the Renaissance/ Enlightenment, or maybe, just possibly, I'm here to serve the same purpose I would've served during those periods, advocating for change, equality, understanding, the move of people towards a progressive society where ALL MEN & WOMEN ARE BORN EQUAL. Call it socialistic, idealistic, backwards, naiive, overtly-optimistic, childish, ignorant, uneducated, or whatever you wish. But as Sir Edmund Burke said "The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing." Think about that each time you turn away from the suffering of the world. I'm not saying you have to give everything to someone else, but if everyone shares what they have, then no one would want for anything. | | |
| "Selfishness is the true athiesm"- FDR Before we begin, let me state one thing clearly, I am the most selfish person I know. That statement itself indicates that I think of myself before others. Recently, not any given date mind you, but just in the last few weeks/months, I've noticed my behavior become increasingly more and more selfish. From my better half, much better half in fact, it's not a recent occurance at all. In fact, she told me that on more than one occassion, my selfishness made her question our relationship but that she has learned to deal with it. I was more than taken back by this. I thought, perhaps like many of you think, that everyone is selfish somewhat, with their time, money, energy, love, etc., but that I or you, are not more selfish than anyone else. After a sermon yesterday from which the above quote is taken, I realized that not only am I selfish with those things, I give so little of myself to others, unless it is otherwise convenient, that I am a god unto myself. I have built up myself into this little haven/hell in which I am the only character and all others play a role I allow them to play. I participate in their stories when I deem it appropriate and find myself more and more isolated as a result. Today, I hope I can begin to undo this selfish cloak and be more free with my time, energy, money, love, etc., and that each one of you notices a change in me. I don't want my future wife to have to deal with my selfishness any more than I want to have this problem later on in life, for example, when she and I have children. I hope that before we wed, I can make myself a better friend, and therefore a good husband, because after all, if marriage is just about the sex, then you're only roommates and the ring means as much as a pinky promise, which to some people is alot, but in all actuallity, means very little. | | |
| I wrote this just today when filling out an application to, that's right you guessed it, teach again. This time, in a middle school in China Spring. Tell me what you think an education is- "I believe an education is more than 12+ years spent in school earning a degree, certificate, pat on the back. An education is the chance to develop relationships, find yourself in an unexpected place, lose yourself and find yourself again in a new place. Education is life, it is the everyday activities we overlook, such as personal interactions and the choices we make. In everything we experience we earn an education, and in the classroom we can look back on our past choices, analyze the situations and possibly outcomes and look ahead with our new knowledge to make better decisions and become more like the people we wanted to be when we were children and had to tell others what we want to be when we grow up." | | |
| like someone else. "It feels like I'm living someone else's life".-I forget what movie it's from, but I saw it not too long ago, maybe it's from a tv show or something...anyway, my life doesn't feel like it's mine, or God's or as if it belongs to anyone in particular for that matter. It's like a bad sitcom, where the main character is stressed beyond his limits and finds little relief in the "friends" or relationships he has with nearby companions. He practically lives alone, and the one who relates to him best is in another city where their relationship, while in the stages of engagement and marital expectancy, is strained to the breaking point. Yet he cannot rectify the problem of distance because of his job/career, bills and because he has very little gaul if any at all. I...feel like quitting. I am not a quitter, or at least I don't consider myself one because even if I barely make it, i.e. grades, work, etc, the point is that I make it, I succeed to some degree. But today, and for the past 3 months or so, ever since I began "teaching", I've been mentally, spiritually and emotionally (yes rachel I will admit for the purposes of this discussion that I have emotions), exhausted. The break for Thanksgiving was certainly needed, but I didn't come back rejuvenated, excited or thankful to be back. Maybe I'm depressed, although since I know not what depression feels like, I could just as easily be feeling sorry for myself. But at 11:19 on November 27, I am alone. "Completely and utterly alone"-another faceless nameless movie. I don't know if I will quit, or what I will quit, or to what specifically this quitting is referring, but when and if I do, you will know...not immediately mind you, but eventually. I know God is here with me and that my loneliness may be merely a byproduct of a new, strange environment with all the complications of being an adult and few of the comforts of home or at least a familiar place. I pray each of you finds the comfort we all seek and is continually thankful for the family and friends we have surrounding us, even if they seem so distant and oblivious to your life. God bless. Peace. Love.
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| since I've posted anything. Most of us have lives, and yet mine has been filled with the distractions which encompass the public education system in the US. While it's all fine and dandy that we try to reach everyone, one must come to the realization that not all can be saved, rescued, educated, fed, clothed, etc, or else be tormented day and night by that haunting reality and never find the comfort which so eludes us as to create value for such items as we have no use. these "students", and i apply that term quite loosely, care so little about the learning which could be happening, and should for all intents and purposes, that i can hardly see the value in the supposed education which i am providing, leading, supplying, proctoring, etc. i am finding that i have not the strength to battle with these children, and that the care which so engaged my senses before has all but withered away and ceased to be. this real world, is not just kicking my butt, i'm letting it. i guess that's where i'm stuck for now. but i feel things getting better, and that's good.
relationship news...: if you hadn't yet heard, rachel and i are now engaged!!!!! i know it took more than awhile, and that some if not all of you had been expecting this for some time. so save the applause and crying for the wedding, which btw is 678. if that's not clear, it means 06/07/08. i thought of it myself, since we didn't get in on 777, which she really wanted. that being said, i'll be back in waco next year, and hopefully teaching, although i don't yet know where or what portion of history. the wedding will be in grand prairie, at her grandparents church, since we couldn't get into Truett, and neither of us has a church we really want to get married at. we've visited the church a number of times, and it's as close to anything else. we'll be sending out invitations right after spring break, so look for them about late march or early april.
another bit of interesting... i purchased my first new vehicle last thursday. it's a white, '07 chevy silverado crew cab. so it has 4 doors and seating for 6, which i had to have, because i'm not hoggin it for myself. so when i get back to waco, which happens every so often, once a month at least to be exact, feel free to bug me for a ride.
i trust this paraphrased update is more than enough info for one sitting, and i pray each one of you has a blessed day. peace. love.
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